Peace in the journey...

I woke up this morning with a very unsettled heart. I think there are a lot of things going on in our life that require great action from the Lord, and although He is up to the challenge, it is overwhelming to once again be reminded that we have no control over the futrure and His plan. All we can do is find peace in knowing that He is doing it all without our attention. What does He command? "Fix your eyes on me"

It sounds so simple and easy right? In my human nature I find myself grasping for a human hand to hold onto and am quickly reminded the only hand that will sustain me through life is that of the Father's. But there are those little moments that he reminds us we are not on this journey alone. He has sent prayer warriors to each us. And in just the moment you forget that you are not alone it is then we get a phone call, or an e-mail, or maybe a card in the mail. I know for me I desire to be that in others lives because in my own life those have been defining moments from the Lord. He has blessed me with some of the best examples of leadership and friendship, far beyond anything I deserve.

The feelings that I have experienced this morning made me long for a simpler time in life where I could have given so much more than I did. How I wish I could have gone back and do a better job at friendship, leadership, servanthood...there has never been a moment in my life I have sat back and said "I really could not have done it better." Depressing as it may seem it is knowing I can always do better that makes me recognize the power of example.

I try to take the examples I treasure most and duplicate them in my dealings with others, knowing the power they had in my life. The BIGGEST thing that I rememeber from each of those who have come before me is the way I saw Jesus in them. The selfless giving I saw in others is what continues to challenge me to show that love to another.

Have I perfected it? Praise the Lord no. I can only watch those the Father has given me and continue to be challenged by their overwhelmiing willingness to be used. "The more I seek you, the more I find you, the more find you, the more I love you, I want to sit at your feet, drink from the cup in your hand, lay back against you and breath, feel your heart beat, this love is so deep, it's more than I can stand, I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming"...

Perception

It's been a while... I can't believe it has been over 6 weeks since my last entry but I guess that goes to show the amount of activity in our lives. There have been some many things, good things, that have happened in that time and trying to reflect and on each of them would be impossible. But what is not impossible is to convey the "theme" I guess you would say, of our life at this present time

We have been so fortunate that even after all is said and done we are blessed beyond what we deserve. There have been many times as I reflect on the changes of our life that I wonder "why us Lord? Why have you continued to spare us?" The answer I believe is because we did not quit. We did not and do not give up when the going gets tough because I want the blessing on the other side of the challenge.

Every six months my husband and I are able to attend an AdvoCare conference in Ft.Worth Texas. It was during the January conference I realized the biggest blessings in my life have come after a challenge. That challenge may have taken a moment to over come by choosing to stay whether than walk away, or it may have taken a little more time of constant mistake or rejection that made me realize I had to look up and press forward.

Many my think it sounds crazy to say that God brought us a direct sales business to refocus our life and family, but it is through this business He has challenged me daily and required me to look up and follow him by faith greater than anytime before. I have learned to trust Him and His plan. As well as be content while He lays the ground work for each step. I have found a new appreciation for the moments in life when before I would have said "We can't do that, it's impossible" The truth still remains that NOTHING is impossible as long as God is the one directing.

Last night as I finished up a few work calls I walked upstairs ready for rest. I wanted to lay my head on a pillow and drift away till morning. It was upon my arrival at the top of the stairs I heard two little boys reading a book together. 2 and 4 and they were reading a book together. Before I may have gotten firm with them and instructed them back to their beds immediately but this time I walked to the door peer in with delight and observed my children bonding with one another. I decided to shower and then headed back to their room where I settled each on of them back in bed and rubbed two little backs till they fell asleep.

It was in taking the time to sit and love on my children that I was once again reminded sleep is WAY over rated. I belive the Lord will give me rest if I am obidant to him by serving those around me. It meant more to my children that I sacraficed an hour of my sleep to rub their backs, then purchasing a new item or taking them to some exciting place would have ever amounted. More than that blessed me with warmth and thanksgiving for the two little angels God allowed to stay with our family here on earth. It was the in facing the challenge of my desire to sleep verses spending time with my kids that I was blessed.

My point, when you face a challenge in life no matter how big or small, conquer it. There is a blessing on the other side if you choose to press forward instead of taking the easy way out or the short cut. A very wise man once said, "It is never easy to get where you need to be. If it is difficult press through, if it's easy start to wonder if you are on the right path."