Laying it Down

Have you ever been in the place you are confident the Lord has brought you and then you feel like you are supposed to stop and ask direction? Because maybe somewhere along the way you ran ahead, or you just kept going because it seemed to be the right path. It is when we hear stop, we may think "stop? why? I am tired of stopping. I just want to go forward!" It is in that moment the tug-of-war is possible. We can want something so badly that we are willing to tug back an forth with God for the possibility that maybe He will see it our way. Oh what children we can be...

I believe it is in those moments we must really ask ourselves a few questions. One, do I really trust God? To the point that I am willing to lay down the very thing I was so confident was His plan. And two, who's will do I really want? Do I want live a life that I have designed or do I want to live the life that He has designed. Neither one of these things comes with out trial. Neither comes without effort. But they both come with peace and joy that surpasses all understanding.

I know that sometimes when God asks me to laid down the very thing He gave me it is because I have become so focused on it, that I have lost focus of the one who gave it to me. Or, I have been so excited that I have forgotten to ask Him why He gave it to me in the first place. All things are to work toward His unfathomable plan and for His glory not mine. It does mean that I misread something or made the wrong choice, it just means that I only see a small amount of the purpose it has in His plan. I have to always stop and look each day what His will for my strong will, is? God knows I will fight and strive for what He has directed. He also knows, I am eager, and impatient. Therefore I need a constant reminder because my desire to please Him can make me question to often. I do not look at this as a weakness anymore but rather the way God deigned me.

He knows when I sleep and when I rise, He also knows how I tick. He created me for His purpose. I encourage any of you who feel like they tend to run ahead or misread, stop. Listen, He gave you strength and a will to succeed. God has not spoken out of turn and most likely you did not misunderstand Him. You are just like me, needing to ask everyday. Let Him direct your path, laying things down periodically to make sure you have still given Him the regains to lead. I am always the horse being lead. Today I am grateful for the fight God has put in me. For the determination that He has given, and for the strength to lay down my agenda and listen for His, regardless if I understand, I will trust.